Just can't do it anymore...

No matter how hard I try, everything I do is never enough. No matter how hard I try, I'm told that it is never my best. The pressure is set upon my shoulders just as a burden.

Damn What The Hell Is Up With Me?...

What the hell am I becoming, I am making some of the most stupid decisions I have ever made in my life. I just cheated on my dude and I feel bad, but not bad enough to tell him. Or maybe I feel bad, but I'm just too scared to tell him because I don't want to see the outcome of the situation. I have no idea as to what I should do, everyone who knows about the situation believes that I shouldn't tell him, but I feel he has a right to know. I feel guilty but not guilt as hell, I'm just so confused about this. Why must this happen now? I thought I was doing good...

Trouble

Damn, so I just told my dude that I kissed my ex dude. My ex dude wants me bad but I'm afraid of hurting my current dude. My dude is slippin hard and when I told him the news. it ssemed as if he didn't give a damn, so now my ex dude is making plans for us in his future. I like my ex dude a lot but I'm just so confused about what to do in general. My ex dude is way to bomb, even for me to handle, and my dude was like that at first, then he just stopped. He stopped everything, I only see him once a week now, and guess where?! At church... It's a mad shame what can happen in so little time, I just need some advice, help a sistah out... :(

I Just Don't Know What To Do...

I'm in such a difficult situation. I don't know how I dig myself into these ditches. I have a bf, but he is trippin' and slackin on his game. My ex has stepped up to the plate and is doing for me what my bf is not. I want to feel guilty about the situation because it is so complicated. My bf claims that I am the first girl he has ever loved, but he is not showing me his love, he says he doesn't want to force anything upon me, which I completely understand. At the same time, we have moved nowhere in our relationship, we have daily arguments, which have died down a little (considering the fact that we don't talk everyday now). I'm feeling all discombobulated about the situation... While on the other hand my ex has called me and has given me his shoulder to lean on. Crazy thing is he and I have broken up twice already. It's just so much to deal with right now, I don't know exactly how I should feel.

HAHA I'm a blogger now!

So everyone who attends City Honors High School C/O 09 please feel free to ADD ME!